Heal this.

Funny how a course of just a few minutes and things can change. I guess the lesson here is never to give your whole heart to anybody. No matter how much you love, no matter how much you trust. Never give in all the time, no matter how much you wish just to see him smile.

It's been a long time since I've shed any tears at all. So u can imagine how happy i've been. Why cant he just listen. The fact that he never even considered my feelings showed so much to me.

I just wish it didnt have to feel like such a tight slap to my face. Lesson learnt. N if only it didnt have to hurt this much. Please. No. I cant stand this pain. No, dear god, heal this. Make it alrite. Make it fine. I know can't always work my way. But you've let me down. So am I suppose to smile & say everything's ok?

I wish I hadnt love so much.